Sadié Sidney

I totally forgot to mention about the day that I almost died from falling and had to get 8 stitches. I'm still very insecure about my ear even though it has healed nicely. I get really bad intrusive thoughts about what could've happened and how I could've injured myself more (not good, I know). I was eating pizza and it spiked my body's levels and then they dumped... Leading me to get light headed and dizzy causing me to fall and knock myself unconcious. I still have absolutely no idea what I cut my ear on and I couldn't find any blood in my apartment, so that remains a mystery because I didn't and never have had an earring in that spot of my ear. This happened earlier this year and I had to be rushed to the hospital. I don't think I've ever injured myself before (that I can remember other than scars, bruises, busted lips, etc from when I was little playing rough) so I was so so shocked. Like I said, I'm still very insecure about my ear and you can ...

For some reason, when someone's spouse passes away, it makes my tears flow. I remember that book brought such an emotional response out of me at 15 years old. I couldn't finish the rest of the book because I don't think I was old enough to understand its themes. My next round of books will definitely contain this book though and I'm hoping I can get more into it.

I learned yesterday that I have high porosity hair. I think my hair has really high porosity because it loves loves protein. I put this protein mask in my hair and it has been happy ever since. It really loves the chebe paste that I made with the protein mask. For now, I'm not really combing or stretching my hair as much. I just add the chebe paste and it driea curly on its own. I really wish I had this formula in high school when I was spending all my money on weaves and wigs. I still like weaves and wigs but I now feel more comfortable with having my hair out and letting it breathe.

This book is set during the war (c. early 2000s) between Northern and Southern Sudan. It is really bringing out emotions in me... It was actually in the children's section of the library, but I don't think this book is for children at all. The name of it is 'A Long Walk to Water'. I found it while looking up 'A Long Walk to Freedom'. So much has happened to Salva (the main character) in the book. First, he lost his family to the war. From there on, he lost his friend to a lion. Then a group of thieves killed his uncle. I want to cry. Books about Africa are so much to take in because it's a way if life that I'm not necessarily used to. Some of the words that I read are like a sharp piercing to the heart. This book is ~100 pages but it's moving me in so many ways. I'm having physical reactions to Salva's pains. Such a great book that's changing me.