Sadié Sidney

School is going so good, I predict that I will get all a's this semester. We had to watch 'Harriet' for class and it was my first time watching it actually. It makes me so emotional when I watch slavery movies. What my people have been through.. It brings tears to my eyes. I still am eyeing that doctorate in Africana studies. That is my absolute dream to get my PhD in Africana studies. I know I can do it, but obviously I have to get my Bachelor's first and then get into a good master's program. I wish I was doing more with my life sometimes and even I don't know what I mean by that. I don't know.. Sometimes just wish I was doing more things and achieving more things. But I am praying for content everyday. Content with my life condition. Content with where I am and what I am doing and where I am going. I put so much pressure on myself to be this perfect person. It's just not possible to be perfect. What I can do everyday is try. And that's more than e...

I love this song so much.. It does remind me of my previous marriage in some ways. Also, one of my longer, previous relationships. We had secrets. We had things that we didn't tell anybody else. Things that I would never tell anyone else ever. I want to get married again, in all vulnerability. Someone I can share my deepest, darkest secrets with. But I know I am not ready yet because I am really busy with my healing, school, and learning more about the word of God. I am not ready to get married again. I was even engaged after my divorce, but I ultimately had to call it off. I was engaged to the same person twice. I called it off twice because the way he would talk to me about my body. He would call me out about my weight and my eating habits, but I don't/didn't even have control over my weight because of my schizophrenic meds. I am vegan right now but it takes time for me to lose weight and I didn't need a man bullying me over my weight. It's hurtful, it's mean...

Just got done cleaning my girly at the pet store, she did such a grrat job! She's air drying right now, haopy girl. I also just got done cleaning with pine sol while playing Stormie Omartian through the house. What a day...❤