Sadié Sidney

I've had these braids a little over a month and it's now time to take them down. While taking care of them, I first applied an oil given to me by my braider in Africa. It was a really strong oil, I will attach it below. Then my husband (who is also growing his hair) made some hair food with Blue Magic Indian Hemp, Wild Hair Growth Oil, and Virgin Hair Fertilizer. I've been oiling/greasing my hair everyday (sometimes twice a day, but minimum once). When I ran out of hair food, I used the Palmer's Grow Success that I attached to this blog. When I take these out, I will be using the Palmer's Grow Success on my scalp and then the Chebe mixed with African Pride Daily Leave In with Coconut Oil and Baobab Oil. I'll also add some drops of some Hair Palm Oil and some of the essential oil that my braider in Nigeria gave me (that I will attach below). God bless this day. God bless my hair. It STILL needs a GOOD trim, but I don't really trust anyone to cut my hair. I...

One of the most humiliating occurences in my life would be going through domestic violence. It's confusing, frustrating, and just an ugly thing to ever deal with. One of the hardest things I had to deal with is not having anyone to talk to during the time. Nobody that understood. Nobody that said, "This is abuse." "This is costing you your life." My first "serious" relationship was with someone who was much older than me when I was around 15-16. He wanted me to financially fund his dreams and put my dreams on the line for him. I look back and see so many issues with his family, his actions and words towards me, and the state of delirium that he left me in. I never told his family that he choked me for $20. I never told anyone that he tried to boil my face in water for "having another man in the house". I kept it all inside. I cried alone. I sulked on my own. It was a tedious process trying to heal from that relationship. In my mind, I wanted ...

I just got this product and I'm adding it to my routine of hair care. It's not really a grease or a cream, but more of a hairdresser. You can use it on your scalp and hair, so I'll be adding chebe to it. My hair is still in braids from Africa, but I'll be taking them out sometime in November. Honestly, my hair grows alot when I get weave, so we'll see the growth when I take these out. I'm excited to start playing in my hair again.

I am almost done getting my Bachelors! Just two more semesters! Since getting back from Africa, I have been so down and depressed. I don't know why. I feel like, truly, I am not and have not done anything with my life. The feeling is so overwhelming. I haven't been reading my books, going to the library, or going out to educational events. I am so overwhelmed with sadness. I've been wanting to write in my blog but didn't know what to say. Some moments I wanted to delete this blog, despite how far it has come. I'm going to vacuum a little tonight and clean up. There's this author event that's coming up on the 26th that I'd love to go to, if I have the energy. So far, this blog has grown to 1,000 reads a month (sometimes more). I am so grateful for a place to be me. Something that I don't have in this world. Today I woke up feeling like everyone hates me. I don't know why. Although, writing in this blog helps alot with those feelings. I have to kee...