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This Song Has Been So Heavy on My Heart

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I love this song so much.. It does remind me of my previous marriage in some ways. Also, one of my longer, previous relationships. We had secrets. We had things that we didn't tell anybody else. Things that I would never tell anyone else ever. I want to get married again, in all vulnerability. Someone I can share my deepest, darkest secrets with. But I know I am not ready yet because I am really busy with my healing, school, and learning more about the word of God. I am not ready to get married again. I was even engaged after my divorce, but I ultimately had to call it off. I was engaged to the same person twice. I called it off twice because the way he would talk to me about my body. He would call me out about my weight and my eating habits, but I don't/didn't even have control over my weight because of my schizophrenic meds. I am vegan right now but it takes time for me to lose weight and I didn't need a man bullying me over my weight. It's hurtful, it's mean...
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Rainy Day with Ore Ofe

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I Washed My Cat at the Pet Store Lol

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Just got done cleaning my girly at the pet store, she did such a grrat job! She's air drying right now, haopy girl. I also just got done cleaning with pine sol while playing Stormie Omartian through the house. What a day...❤
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Lost 50 Pounds with the Veganism

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I need some ezekiel bread now, I've never tried it. This dish is with spinach, but I want some kale too. Maybe collard greens?
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I Thought This Year I Wasn't Going to Go In

This year, I went to the psych ward for my birthday again. It sucks every time. I'd rather spend my birthday at home in my bed, but I was strapped down from the ankles to my wrists due to not complying to a welfare check. I know now to just open the door when the police come. I do not like the police. I do not trust the police. I never have since a little girl getting my first rape kit at 5 years old. They like to play games that I do not like to participate in. I did not really enjoy my birthday this year, but that's really ok. It is a blessing to be breathing and walking around. I was able to catch up on most of my school work already. I have one 4 page essay and a test due but I will try to get that done tomorrow (Monday at the latest). I am a little disappointed in myself, but they tried to tell me in the psych ward that it's ok to get help. I know it's ok to recieve help sometimes, but I just want my brother back. I want my grandma back. I want my dad back before h...
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