Want To Do A Fully Nude Shoot

Been listening to instrumentals non-stop with 'Love All Over Me' and 'Diary' and have been doing the last of this semester's work today. I have NO idea how I was able to do my schoolwork and also work 7 days a week with postpartum dates, birth attendances, birth classes, and also maintaining a marriage at one point. Right now, I'm working 5-6 days a week and I still get a bit overwhelmed with everything. I have to constantly tell myself that "I can do it!" and to never give up. I think this month and last month I have had feelings of giving up, giving in, and quitting. I talk briefly about being nominated to study abroad in the UK, but the whole process has been quite stressful for me. What I worry about most is the unknown...what I can't see, what I can't feel... Also considering that I wasn't working from February to November of this year, of course money was tight at times. As frugal as I tried to be, expenses kept piling, and money kept slipping away from me. I stopped working because the stress of my marriage (which ultimately led to a divorce Dec 9th, 2024) started affecting me heavily emotionally and physically. Despite my struggles, I decided to go back to work. It has been soo hard, I have been pushed beyond my limits. Despite this, I have promised to pray every morning, every night, turn my school work in early, and focus on leaving to go abroad. Sometimes I am sad because I have no help in the form of family or no longer a spouse. My story is nowhere near special as many people are doing things on their own as well. Many people are also struggling, some more than me. Despite my blessings, sometimes the struggling alone gets to me. I have nowhere to turn to, nobody to call when I am in need, and nobody to truly trust who wants the absolute best for me. I have good days and I have bad. Lately, I feel like God has put me in a position to where I can only call on him. I can only trust on him. I can only need him. I have put my anxieties, fears, and scary thoughts into him and at most, I feel better. I just started seeking God in October and I do feel the shift in me. I am praying that by this time next year, I am completely renewed person. I no longer worry, want, or have ample anxiety. Things are getting better, also while I acnowledge that things will never be perfect.