Sadié Sidney

I have a dream of living in Alpine, NJ or Saddle Brook, NJ and paying for a million+ dollar home all cash by myself. I've been doing so good with trading. I'm almost at 10k a month and I plan to compound my gains to make my first million before I'm 30 years old with no kids. It would be a surreal experience to have my first million but I put 1,000,000 on my vision board when I was 19 years old. It's crazy because last year, I had only $12 in my bank account. I was on section 8, food stamps, and PACO (utility bill help). Now, I'm able to afford things I never had. Experience places I've never been. I don't have to depend on section 8 or food stamps for my livelihood. I remember working 60-80 hours a week just to afford my $800 rent in Atlanta. I was tired and exhausted and it just felt like I was never making enough money. It was depressing... Even after we had to identify Sidney's body in the morgue, I had to go to work a couple of days after his death...

I love this youtuber!!!! She is so chill and so mature, no matter what people say. She does her own thing. I remember her being in a lesbian relationship that didn't work out and instead of bashing her ex, she made a video about how hard the breakup has been and has moved on so gracefully.. I respect her so much for keeping her old videos up. This video was so inspiring to watch and her personality is so true. She's been through alot but she still manages to be graceful and beautiful... I will always follow her and support her. Her videos got me through tough times..

I'm thinking of buying a camera and to start taking pictures. I'm planning to go to Africa soon so I really would want to bring a camera with me when I go.

I don't have the words for how I feel... I just feel so weird? I don't even know. Turning 25 has definitely changed me in ways that I don't really comprehend. Too old for some habits and ideas, but too young to fully grasp the whole scope of life. I don't even know if that makes sense, but this is where I am today. I always remember that I have schizophrenia (how could I ever forget?) but I constantly forget that I also was diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder. So my mood swings are off the walls. How I'm able to exist without any help... I don't know... But I am trying my best here to remain sane and do what needs to be done on a daily basis. This book that I'm reading has been the truth. I had no idea when I rented this book from my local library that I would feel the way that I have felt. It is not a coincidence that this book found me. When I first started reading the book, it was set in Alabama and it had a country twang to it and I just couldn't se...