My Favorite Movie

I can't remember the first time I watched this movie, I believe I was 16 or 17. I love this movie dearly. Such a moving piece. It reminds me of Danielle. Danielle was a dyke from my middle school that I was in love with. So in love. We were in a relationship and kept in contact for like 5 years. I remember the first time I saw her. I was in last period and she was there with her friends, sitting on a desk. I've seen dykes before, but she was different. She was so pretty, but also very masculine. She had the prettiest dark complexion. She wanted to have sex with me, but I couldn't really bring myself to do it. I felt like it was a bad idea. I didn't see us working out in the long run and she was always hurting my feelings. No matter the time or distance, she would always text me. She gave me so much attention. She even texted me when I moved to New York. Danielle... I showed my best friend Amaya a picture of her and she was like "She's so fucking fine. Let her eat you eat, it'll feel good." I was a scardy cat. I just couldn't do it. I was gay, but not gay enough to eat her pussy back. My gay had boundaries. And plus, I didn't want to embarass myself. My first kiss was with a girl in eigth grade at Paul D. West Middle School. I wasn't really dating until I moved in with my dad. That's when I started sneaking out, etc. So I felt like things were moving really fast in my life after I gave that boy a handjob. So, I just didn't want to do it. For some reason, I've been missing her. I remember one of her friends dm'ed me some years ago looking for her and I hadn't heard from her. She would always reach out and bother me about sex. But I haven't heard anything... I changed my number, which I kind of regret. But people would blow my phone UP after I moved to New York and it was alot to manage. I do miss Danielle dearly. For a long time, I would say that she was my first love. I honestly don't know though. I actually forgot about her until I started thinking about how beautiful she was. All my friends thought she was so fine lol.

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