Tired

I forgot that this blog was mostly to document my mental health journey. I've been talking about everything else but. Recently, about a week or so ago, my psychiatrist switched me off of Vraylar to Calypta. I was off antipsychotics for a few days to clear out the vraylar, then I started Calypta. I am sooo tired. Exhausted actually. Part of it is my fault because I go to sleep so late. Most nights, I go to sleep at 2 am. Then I wake up around 2 pm. I don't like that... I don't like it because when I wake up at 8-9 am, I get things done before I start having to need a nap. If I'm up at 2, to me, the day is almost over at that point. In the sense of going out and handling business, considering I have to get ready, get dressed, and go. I've been so sluggish on this new medicine, I just want to stay in the bed and do nothing. I hate that so much, it makes me feel bad. It's 10 pm right now and I have some energy to get things done. I'm hoping that I'll have this much energy in the morning tomorrow so I can pick up some packages and get my nails done in Hoboken. I go to Hoboken almost every week to pick up packages at my mailbox. I lost count of how many items I'll be picking up, but I know I bought a pink Malcolm X hat and a brown Fela Kuti t-shirt. I also bought a bedazzled shirt from a drag website. That's what I was planning to wear to see Ms.Tina, but I ultimately changed my mind. I liked the pink dress more, it would've probably been more comfortable than the shirt. I say that because with the shirt, I would've had to wear jeans. My jeans in combination with the belt I wear is so uncomfortable. It takes so much for me to get a good fit in my jeans. I have to jump, suck in, etc to get the look that I want in my jeans. And now I'm imagining having to wear that all night and sit down and I'm relieved I decided on the dress. I think I'll wear the bedazzled shirt soon, maybe if I take myself out to eat or next time I get my hair done. I'll wear it and try to get pictures. I like to eat alone, so I have to always ask a host or server to take my picture. I get so embarrassed doing that because I don't want to bother anybody. I want to get my hair professionally flat ironed soon, I'm honestly not sure how soon but that'll be my next hair style. My afro is pretty but there's sooo much shrinkage. When I was reading online, they said that shrinkage is a great show of health. After I get my hair flat ironed, I was going to try a deep yellow wig. Maybe a brown, glossy eyeshadow look with that? I need some more eyeshadows, I'm running out of pretty colors. I'll look for some more colors soon. I know there's a blue mercury in Hoboken, and that's a makeup store that I've never been before.