I'm really sad because my first love passed away... Her name was Danielle. When I tell you that I was in LOVE with Danielle, I was so in love with her. She was my first serious girlfriend who I met when I was in middle school. We kept in contact for over 10+ years. I loved her and I can't believe she's gone. I miss her so much. Once I break up with someone, I don't speak to them. It's over. Danielle is the only ex that I talked to and I'm heart broken. I wanted the best for her and did not expect for her to pass away. I remember when we broke up.. I literally wanted to die. I had been heart broken before, but this time was so different. I couldn't eat, couldn't get out the bed, I wanted to be close to her. Of course I forgave her for everything, but I didn't think we should get back together. Although, she was my friend forever after the breakup and it's sad that she's gone. I actually made a post about her in reference to the movie 'Blue is the Warmest Color'. She reminds me of that movie so much and also the movie 'Pariah'. When I think of this loss, I think of the words, "I will never be the same". Because I won't. I have never loved someone (besides family), as much as I loved Danielle. Because of the heartbreak I felt when we broke up, I don't even love people the same. I gave her my all. That's something I just don't do anymore. I'm not saying I won't ever give my all again. No, that's not what I'm saying. But Danielle was so special, so unique. There's only one Danielle. This is a big loss for me because she was a huge part of my teenage years, we were so close.
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