Hit 800 Posts Today

How did I write and post 800 posts already? I divided it by the years I've been writing in this blog and it's about 267 posts a year. That's so interesting... I have a very microblog as I only have 16,000 reads which equals out to about 2 reads per post. But I'm so thankful for this blog. Friday night/Saturday morning was so rough for me... Every day is rough, but THOSE days felt impossible to get through. One of the first things I did was write in this blog and that ultimately made me feel better. Even if I only have 2 readers per post, I think that counts for something. I say that because when I first started, nobody was reading this blog. And I say that all the time because I was so embarassed when I found out all the views on my blog were from my silly goose self. Now, we're averaging about 300-400 reads per month. That counts for something. I hope this blog is something that can keep at least one person going.. Schizophrenia sucks and I suffer every single day. And I may suffer every single day of my life as there is no cure. But it's this blog, the books that I like to read, and school that keep me going. I hope maybe one day my story keeps at least one person going. One person saved means the world to me. Sometimes I think I should delete this blog and go into hiding, but I always talk myself out of it. I think my blog is too sad, too real, and too dramatic.. I hope nobody else feels that way, but how someone else feels about my output really isn't any of my business, quite frankly. This blog was mainly for mental health purposes, but I also talk about my newfound hair, my cat, and the books that I love to read. I do wonder where this blog will be in 5 years. But I try to tell myself that the future isn't any of my business, as today needs all my attention.