Thinking About Attending Births Again

I haven't been working for about 8 months because I decided to retire after a really tough experience at a hospital in Long Island during a birth. I was thinking that I wasn't strong enough or smart enough to be a doula. Even though I've successfully delivered 10+ babies, I have my doubts. I have my reservations. But through prayer and through talking to other doulas, I decided that I may start my practice back up again. I'm still praying on it so I'm not sure, but it's just a thought. I don't really know yet.