Praying/Thinking About Fasting

In terms of good news, my nomination was accepted to study in the United Kingdom. I'm a little apprehensive about going (honestly) because I can't bring my cat with me. She's my baby, my best friend, my everything, and I'm going to miss her dearly... Everything I've been through this past year: divorce, heartache, deep financial struggles, calling off an engagement, quietness in my life, stillness.. Her little face and heart has been there. Just writing this makes me so emotional. I'll continue to pray about it and I'm hoping I can find someone here who can watch her and make sure she's well taken care of until I come back. But yes, other than that, I'm excited to study in the UK. I'll still be studying Africana studies and I'm even considering getting my degree in the UK (still not sure, going to see how the first semester goes). I started back praying as well. If you've been following this blog, I've been chanting 'nam myoho renge kyo' for awhile. I felt like after my trip to Atlanta, my quality of life has dwindled completely. The way my family treated me in Atlanta made me feel so low, so suicidal, and so sick. Again, I got to a place where I didn't want to live anymore and everyday since I've been trying my best to pick myself back up. I did not like nor appreciate my trip back to Atlanta and I may not ever go back to Atlanta. It was that traumatic. I am thinking about fasting though, but I'm not quite sure. I would be fasting for religious reasons to get that experience off of me and to move on completely with forgiveness, love, and hope. All of which I am lacking right now.