Yes, I Am Living With the Voice of the Beloved
I am living within the sweet, precious memories of my late twin brother Sidney. I have become his voice over the years as I am writing our story right now. I love the title of this chapter as it is such a sensitive topic. Grief is so sensitive. It is a powerful topic that holds so much weight, especially for me. Grief took over my life... It lead me to multiple psych ward stays, homelessness in NJ, and living off of social services for many years because the grief wouldn't let me work. This is how it feels when you know someone died for you. Sometimes it feels good. Sometimes it feels bad. Sometimes it's too much, sometimes it is just enough to remain the manna for my day. I miss my brother dearly and I never got the chance to really grieve him as I had to work two days after identifying Sidney with a gun shot wound in his brain. It was tough, but I tried my best. How does it feel when you know someone died for you? It feels like they didn't deserve it. They didn't des...
